this is gonna be one real emo post. so nevermind me alright? =)

when i looked back at what i've done. i still can't figure out what stuffs i did wrong. maybe i'm just blind or plain dumb. after what you'd told me, i spent a moment to think. thinking what i'd done that made you feel this way. perhaps i don't have that "gentleman" mentality that normally in general guys would have done. and it made me feel as though i'm still not mature enough yet. even though i'm like going to be 19 years old? when i compared how i normally communicate with my friends and to you. it's different. i don't really talk much. unless there's something that interests me. even if it doesn't, i would try to speak out.

it's like so difficult for me. whenever i have that chance, i messed it up. tell me what should i do? God perhaps knows. but in the end, it all comes down to me to figure it out. i swear i'm not going to let this just go without a fight. you may not sensed it. but that feeling is always there in me. never going to change, never will be. until i decide to give up.

i guessed some of my friends will be like feeling "oh man, emo post again." even alcoholics won't solve this.

anyways, i gotta get back to normal and focus. from what i done from Fluid Mech A past year papers. overall its okay. but there's 1 or 2 qns that might kill me. haha