today was bad, real bad. first, getting said about doing foolish acts in the library and second was my grouping for CPTC attachment.

the first one doesn't concern me at all actually. didn't affect me at all. but it was the second that affected me the most. getting separated with my cliques was ok. i could accept it. but it's just that i'm not ready to go into a new group of people and make new friends. as normally people will say, the first step to initiate is difficult. it takes up confidence and courage to be able to life ur hand to shake the other party and everything will fall into place eventually. you just need that initiative. i wonder i still have it. i'm lazy to make and know new friends. or am i too quiet and shy? perhaps the latter suits me most. i feel like complaining. i'm out of my comfort zone without my cliques. i think i will be like a stupid fool there in my group not talking to anyone. like some anti-social mentally sick guy. haha. its like a test of my endurance given by God. trying to see if i can overcome this barrier. i hope i do, i must.

oh ya. to the who-ever whom said of my stupid act. dun think you never did any stupid acts infront of people. i know you do. everyone has done it. so you don't have the right to say people. perhaps freedom of speech. but i don't like that attitude of yours.

ok. whatever. just finding something to vent my frustration of mine. back to study.