gotten over and done with my 2 tests this week. hopefully i can clear them. hopefully.

been experiencing disturbing stuffs at home. arguing over needless stuffs. perhaps my fault for raising that issue. but its a bit irritating when you are being compared to someone more capable than you. while you know that you yourself wont be able to reach that high standards. sometimes when i look at my dog. i see how carefree he is, able to eat, sleep and play without any worries/stress/arguments in life. and i'm so envious of him. if you are able to understand what i'm talking about. that kind of life you wont be regretful of. live like there's another brand new day tml that sort of mindset. instead of looking back at stuffs that are already gone and there's no point or use to think about it. as if we could travel back to time and rectify the mistakes we had done. and if we could have, everyone in this world would be perfect. too perfect to be true.

i dunno why i have been thinking alot of these stuffs. perhaps too much emotions when i blog here. this is the only place where i can blog it out and feel so much better.

alright, tml's our class outing. dun really feel that excited about it. not like those chalets where we had so much fun. eating at sakae might be fulfilling. but it also burns my pocket too. hopefully we have the dinner with our complete class, it will be so much havoc in that restaurant. haha

alrighty, shall update for awhile. been worrying about quite minor stuffs.

like for fluid mech A. received that warning letter on my attendance. i MUST go to every of his lectures and tutorials without fail. plus a special condition, to report to class 5mins before lessons. i have to do that. the poor attendance mostly due to my dental appts but most importantly, my punctuality. late = no attendance. and i dun wanna give my lecturer a bad impression that i dun take my work seriously. hopefully tommorrow i will be real early for his lesson. no more late-comings. hopefully i can slowly improve on it. sheesh..

this week will be real busy. 3 tests. 3 of which is GEMS, PI and Plant Ult. have to start revising by tml. gotta clear all the distractions in my room.

and i noticed quite a few things about myself. weird i should say. my mindset has been, how should i say? sophisicated or complicated. not those dirty thoughts please. but is those when i see a person, i will think deeply whether he/she is a good person. bah~ i shan't think about this too much.

alright, shall stop here.

today was bad, real bad. first, getting said about doing foolish acts in the library and second was my grouping for CPTC attachment.

the first one doesn't concern me at all actually. didn't affect me at all. but it was the second that affected me the most. getting separated with my cliques was ok. i could accept it. but it's just that i'm not ready to go into a new group of people and make new friends. as normally people will say, the first step to initiate is difficult. it takes up confidence and courage to be able to life ur hand to shake the other party and everything will fall into place eventually. you just need that initiative. i wonder i still have it. i'm lazy to make and know new friends. or am i too quiet and shy? perhaps the latter suits me most. i feel like complaining. i'm out of my comfort zone without my cliques. i think i will be like a stupid fool there in my group not talking to anyone. like some anti-social mentally sick guy. haha. its like a test of my endurance given by God. trying to see if i can overcome this barrier. i hope i do, i must.

oh ya. to the who-ever whom said of my stupid act. dun think you never did any stupid acts infront of people. i know you do. everyone has done it. so you don't have the right to say people. perhaps freedom of speech. but i don't like that attitude of yours.

ok. whatever. just finding something to vent my frustration of mine. back to study.

i finally found some time to blog. last 2 days i was feeling so damn dead and sick. perhaps the worst sickness i ever had in my 18 years of living here. it all started on tuesday night while i was revising maths. suddenly had stomach cramps and it hurt like hell. and it made me moodless to carry on doing maths. and i took some gastric pills and forced myself to sleep.

but i couldn't. i was like rolling on the bed countless of times and grabbing my stomach, hoping the pain will go away. and suddenly i fell asleep. i dunno what happened, but i woke up at around 4am. and this weird tasting fluid gathered around my mouth. i knew i was gonna vomit, and i kept controlling it. but to no avail. i vomitted out the stuffs i ate for dinner. i think i vomit like 1 litre of watery shits out from my stomach. haha. and i asked my mum to help me clean up my room. sigh.

on wednesday morning, i woke up and initially decided not to go to school. but i have a maths quiz on that day. and i felt like dying if i went to school. decided to take a cab to school and was abit late. quiz was bad. i couldn't concentrate. half-heartedly did my quiz and was hoping the invigilator quickly end the quiz and collect the paper. after the quiz i felt much better. but towards the end, it came back.

ok. i feel like i'm whining alot about this. dun feel like typing anymore. hopefully i will turn out feeling better tommorrow.

today was late for PI make up lecture. 10am lesson, 11am reached and 12pm ended. haha. come for 1hr only. after school, we went to cineleisure to eat our lunch. but on our way there on the mrt train, some stuff happened. someone scolded us for our behaviour in the train. heck care la. haha

ate LJS and slack there for quite a time before we made our way to level 8. KBOX?! 4 guys going to sing? isn't that abit gay? haha. and again. this time, a super-charged sports car ran over me for the 1st song i sang. super awful. like omfg. but gradually after a few songs, wasn't that bad already. sang our way from 2pm to 7pm. and after that, we roamed around aimlessly to find some place to eat our dinner. and finally we settled at some food court. i ordered a plate of nasi bryani and it was damn hot & spicy. bui tahan it.

after dinner. we walked our way to cathay at dhoby ghaut. and we managed to find a ride home. haha. cool. jw's father's car was nice. toyota stream with 2 tv screens. MTV: Pimp My Ride. hahaha. dropped off at yewtee mrt station. song tio. lol.

alright, blog till here now. have to go back and do my e-learning stuffs.