its been a while since we talked. days? months? years maybe? its weird to be this way, since we have the same blood flowing through our body. is'nt that equates to easier communication? closer bonds? i dun think this happen since i was in secondary sch.

we used to challenge each other to games, we become spoil sport when we lose; we argue and things will go back normal right? since we are family. but it is not. we are so stubborn to even say sorry to each other. perhaps this is the personality we share.

one has gone overseas to work, to be specific, in shanghai, china. he's mature, knows how to take care of himself, having a stable and healthy career with a beautiful decent girl by his side. she's working in shanghai too. how sticky they are. haha =)

the other is working too. i think he's still childish sometimes. did have a girlfriend, but due to some circumstances, they broke off. hope they get back together soon.

me, the smallest and youngest of them all. still studying. and have been slacking. i dunno why i cant get that "old self" back in sec sch days where i'm nerdy, quiet and sort of hardworking at times when exams are round the corner. i wish i still have my friends back together. where we'd joked about teachers and classmates. though i'm not that evil. haha. they were those whom stayed by my side, shared problems and mugging together effortlessly. even though there were some ups and downs among us, we still made up and bury the hatchet.

the five of us sat together in a row as if we owned that particular place. no one were sitting there 'cept for us. and i'm the only yellow guy in the clique. so its pretty cool to have non-chinese friends that are close together. so i hope we still rmb each other for years to come.

now in poly, i experienced a different type of friendship among my classmates. a friendship which has backstabbing, fake facades, gossiping, hypocrites, and lots more. perhaps these experiences will enable me to understand how dark life can be will these factors around. i chose to be not involved in this. i stayed neutral. i'm naive. i ignored those factors. i want a pure friendship without these evil factors. but the thing is, i cant. its common everywhere you roam around. in work, in families, in schools, in politics. you cant turn ur backs and pretend not to know it. you have to bring that strength from within and brush these aside.

indeed, as i moved on with life. i learned quite a number of morals and stuffs. to have a stable friendship is to have a firm foundation. Honesty, Trust & Integrity. these 3 have about the same meaning but are used differently in situations.

sounds so emotional eh? dunno why i would come out with such a topic. but, i decided to write it out to express how i feel in this moment of time.

i do hope when school reopens, it will be a brand new feeling. no more of those.