today went to NDC for consultation on my jaw surgery. the consultant revealed to me that the operation will be on both jaws, the upper and lower jaw. so its a 2-jaw surgery. and the consultant is real good with his information on the surgery, like the operation phase, recovery time etc. black and white, easily understood. but i noticed that this surgery will be quite a complicated one. how the lower jaw is cut and push back in the fit the bite with the upper jaw.

i feel like writing out all the procedures. i dun feel comfortable keeping it in my heart. feels wierd...i worry about the costs of the surgery, gonna cost my parents 10K? i think ard there. lucky medisave can be used, if not, i gonna be a financial burden for them. sometimes i wonder why i'm born with so much problems? is it what i did in my past life that i deserved this current state of mine? haa, i'm thinking too much. i feel like going to somewhere i can just enjoy my music and relax where i dun get disturbed by whats going on ard me.

until i get back to my normal self. i wanna pierce another hole in my left ear! =D LOL